today is december 28, 2025.
Today just didn't exist for me. yesterday, I laid down in bed and slept at 10 pm to 1 am. I got up and brushed my teeth, then joined discord with a couple of friends. I was there until 3 am, but I wanted to sleep because I wanted to fix my sleep schedule. I laid in bed... 4 am, 5 am, and then it was 7 am. This was the first time I've ever stayed up this late. I don't know how, but I finally fell asleep at 7. Then I woke up at 2 pm, and stayed in bed until 4-5 pm. I got up for my first meal of the day, then hopped back into bed and slept until 9... which is now. This is kind of sad, I'm gonna take melatonin today so I can sleep hopefully at 12-1.
Anyways about christmas, it actually was great. This was a good christmas. It's been years since christmas felt so lively. I think 6 years. 2020 was, yk , empty. At that time I still had jolly and probably still believed in santa. 2021, I spent the day huddled up in my room, couldn't see my family, and played hypixel skyblock while on discord call. Other years up to now just didn't feel so lively because a large majority of my family could never come. But 2025 was good, at least.
I got presents, I was very happy. One of my cousins bought me a hollister hoodie with stars on it, and there's fleece inside. It's very warm. Another one of my cousins bought me a cinamoroll ramen bowl :O
So cute, and another one of my cousins got me a small waterproof speaker so I can listen to music while showering now! I just know my roommates gonna hate me.
Christmas felt good. This year I didn't feel so much christmas spirit because the first half of december was finals week, so obviously you don't feel so much spirit when you're studying hard. I hope next year, I become closer to my ideals and recover from whatever I got going on in my head right now. The new year is right around the corner!
I've been going outside too much recently. Now this is pretty strange for me to say because I like home, but I keep going outside. You see for the past 2-3 yrs in highschool I became super insecure about being lonely and not hanging out, so I forced myself to make plans. Or at least I was stuck with the idea that I NEEDED to spend school breaks hanging out because everyone else was. This time, I'm not doing that anymore. But I've mainly been going to places alone for fun or just to grab some stuff. I've been a frequent at michaels, grabbing fabric paint and fabric for sewing. Speaking of sewing, check out one of my projects.
I only censored the bottom right because it's my full mandarin name. Not that it's on very many government docs, since I live in the US, lol. people with keen eyes with be able to recongnize that ้ป is in traditional :). I dislike simplfied, but i have no problem with ppl using it. anyways, I used a squeeze bottle diluted with red and black paint mixed with water for the blood, and I stenciled the crosses using cardboard. I used a fabric pencil for the writing, and the photo doesn't show it well but I sewed a ripped up piece of black fabric to the bottom of the shirt too make it look even more beat up
Oh and I forgot to mention but this is my old high school gym uniform. Never will wear this shirt ever again, so I had some fun. Anyways, i need to eat dinner now. and I want to watch some more yuri.
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