(Minecraft drama!) thoughts and journalling part 2

 View part one here: https://ahaehym.blogspot.com/2026/03/recent-thoughts-and-journalling.html

There is more gaming drama, and this time it comes from my home turf of Minecraft! I have long since retired from Minecraft PVP. I played from 2016 to 2021, and I primarily played on the 1.8 version (still superior in my eyes). But for a long time now, PvP has moved from 1.8 to the more recent versions. Because the entire PvP community was built on 1.8, 1.9/modern version players have created their own community. Nowadays it’s way bigger than the 1.8 PvP community I used to play in. I like to watch the “new” wave of MCYTbers (the wave after dreamSMP) and they have massive channels: average around 1 mil subs. 

There was a server called MCtiers that popped up as the prime PVP server and where you got your skill level tested, from what I know it didn’t even use an elo system, it was based on what OTHER players thought your skill level was (wtf is this bullshit lmao). So you would fight a “tester”, they would evaluate how they thought u did and give you a rating/rank. The top player was a person named “Marlowww” she was also the server owner I believe. She dominated all of categories and was considered the best Pvper..

Anyways, Marlowww was a cheater who used many hacked clients, and was exposed to have not even been a girl and was catfishing. This was huge news because Marlow using their high status in the community would keep people silent by banning, rallying their fans, to silence other creators. The part where Marlow pretends to be a girl is important (and really funny!) because players within the community have BEEN suspicious of Marlow, but people would chalk up any criticism as sexism and jealousy. And I won’t even lie that the Minecraft pvp scene is like 90% guys. Now this is absolutely awful for women in gaming. So far in 2026, we have had the Kingsman situation in marvel rivals, now the Marlow situation: both events basically set women in gaming back 50 years. Now if there’s a good Minecraft pvper who happens to be a girl, people are gonna assume she’s hacking, or that she’s a guy… 

Now to my thoughts and what I found the craziest: so apparently Marlow was previously known as “DangerMario” some kid known for griefing in Minecraft spaces. He realized he could use his high pitched voice to pretend to be a girl, gain some legitimacy, and create this Marlow persona. The FUNNIEST part is someone said DangerMario’s balls dropped during the 4-5 year activity of the Marlow persona, so he couldn’t fake his voice anymore, so he used an AI voice changer! If you go to the  most recent Marlow videos where he responds to the allegations, you can hear the voice changer, it’s SO OBVIOUS! How did people not immediately realize! This is why the 1.8 community was better (it’s not) 

So someone got Marlow in a call and asked them to sing “do re mi fa so la ti do” and Marlow couldn’t because the AI would so obviously fuck it up, so he pretended his electricity cut out… at this point it was cooked, now the memes of “Marlow vs do re mi” were spreading. I think the worst part is a lot of girls actually did look up to Marlow, it must suck for them. But this is why Minecraft PVP is a curse. Technoblade is our king of PVP and the only one we could trust. 

I haven't told people but I have been taking Japanese in school for the past 3 months and I think I will be sticking with learning it independently for a while. I've been grinding Anki and hope to take it seriously. There is many reasons why I don't exactly tell people though, because of the connotations... the weeb "I'm gonna move to japan when I turn 18" people, the "Japan is living in the year 3000", and the nature of the people who learn japanese and feel the need to flaunt it. But moving on to my class, I really like my teacher. My class is very small, 7 people in total actually. It helps gives a lot of opportunity to speak, my teacher does many turn and talk speaking activities. And surprisingly, the people in my class are super cool too! I think this is mainly due to the fact the class I am taking is a more mellow class, and people in my class are seniors, graduate students, people who want to learn but are very busy outside of class. But there is one guy who I find interesting. 

He a tubby guy who looks rather old, but apparently he’s a freshman. Compared to the masters student in my class, he looks 10 years older lmao. Maybe he is older because he entered college at later date. Anyways, he talks a lot about anime. Sometimes my teacher will do a speaking exercise and ask us things like "What did you do this weekend?" in japanese and have us respond in Japanese to practice. He would respond with: I watched anime. My teacher is very nice, she asked him what anime? I braced myself for the answer he dropped: my dress up darling. 

Ok. I know people like my dress up darling, but it my eyes its another ecchi hetslop romcom with a teenage girl with big boobs and the main character is a mid as boy. I know that in this anime the main character is a good person and not a complete BUM like rent a girlfriend, but it doesn't matter because why would you watch that shit when you could just watch cosmic princess kaguya. anyways my teacher looked around and asked was like "wow, has anyone heard of this anime before" and I was holding back ANY sort of facial expression super hard. I basically never talk about this in real life unless it's mainstream stuff like JJK that's easy to latch into conversation. Actually I barely watch anime now, I don't know whats happening in chainsaw man, nor JJK, or spy x family or something. Im an og watching naruto when i was 8. I could tell you most the plot points from Naruto to Naruto shippuden. 

Naturally during class we would have turn and talk exercises so I do talk with him and get some pieces of the puzzle. I recall during one instance when I asked him something like "Where would you like to go to in Japan (preset question from my teacher)" he said akiharabara and that he wanted to buy anime figurines and take photos of cosplayers. Ok fair enough, im not gonna judge a book by its cover, but he REALLY does seem like the stereotype; if he's actually a pure soul i apologize deeply for my assumptions. I eavesdropped a bit in a different convo and listened to what animes he said he liked, but he dropped pretty basic ones like love is war, chainsaw man. Like I thought he might have SOME sort of ball knowledge and like maybe at least bocchi the rock or k-on? Those r pretty mainstream, but nah he not even a real one like that. As for me I silently judge everyone's taste in anime because I literally only read yuri manga and unfortunately everything I read is "niche". Not niche enough to be considered cool in actual geek circles but niche that i dont want to talk about it irl. I mean how many people irl know slow start? I wonder if he knows what Touhou is... because he looks like he would have some mediocre surface level ball but maybe he's just hiding it. Or maybe he just watches hentai. I hope the latter is not the case. I am very judgemental I hope I am wrong.

Part 3 incoming... maybe! I actually have a bunch of thoughts I just wanna ramble about 

Recent Thoughts and journalling!

 Ah! I gotta stop "disappearing." I've been very motivated on my website but not updating very often. Along with my blog as well. So many things I wanted to write about but I just forgot to actually write! It's already been a month since my last blog? Time just goes way too fast. 

Recent thoughts. I've just been taking education seriously because it serves as a good distraction and reminder of why I'm here. At the very least, I am in college to learn. It feels like a lot of people forget that college is for education. 2 weeks ago on a monday morning as I walked to my 8:00 AM class I deleted Instagram, then I deleted twitter. There was no planning for this, no performative taking a mental health break! story. I just did it because I wanted to. I didn't do it to focus on education, mental health, or anything like that. I don't even know what I did it, because Instagram was my primary messaging platform for everything. But last year ago or two years ago I wouldn't have deleted instagram at all with the same excuse of its "my primary messaging platform". To be honest, instagram being "primary messaging platform" is a lie now, because no one actually messages me directly anymore. The only messages I get are from 3 people consistently sending me reels, and group chats I am in that I do not interact with that all. I have a spam instagram acconut that I was doing what I said I would do: start using the app like how people used to use it: making random posts 1 photo square posts. But I won't be keeping up with it I guess

Well what changes did I notice? Well not much, there is probably a benefit somewhere. It does make me happy I am finally able to not always be hyper-updated in the lives of others. Particularly this one guy I absolutely hate. Oh, I just realized I could write an entire blog about this one dude I cannot stand. The gist of it is that in high school he used to be so mean to me for no reason, but in college he started to see me as "cool" so then he tried sucking up to me, and basically copying anything I did. I know this stupid guy from volleyball, and half of the reason I hate him is because he would be such a fucking dick in volleyball. Actually, I haven't played volleyball since last year, and while most of it was just losing motivation and interest, I won't lie that he made it unbearable to play because he was in my friend group. He was not great at the sport, but always wanted to give me advice, and would do it in the most annoying way possible. He would even give advice to people (way) better than him! I talking about people who won championships. 

Lastly, for someone who always talked big he would NEVER live up to it. For example, he would want to play front row so he'd ask to switch, I'd say yes, but then he wouldn't switch back. And he was swing straight into the net, because even though I feel bad for saying this, he is 5'3 with no hops. Of course short people can still play front row, I'm not much taller than him. But he doesn't exactly have a good vertical jump. He had a big ego problem, he was not capable of playing for fun: get mad, give you dirty looks, but mainly stay completely silent with a big fat frown on his face. But tying it back to instagram: This guy was chronically on instagram! I think he had to have had 5 hours on the app DAILY! Anytime you saw an instagram reel he'd probably have already liked it. He'd repost a fuck ton of stuff, and post on his stories oh god his stories were so bad. "We won the tourney and our entire team slept at 5 and was hungover lmaooo" <-- Something he actually posted. I could go on and on but maybe I'll save it for next time.

I guess I have been watching more youtube, but I always liked doing that anyways. Overall still a net positive. With less things to do on my phone there is less reason to use it. I am playing more games recently, completely addicted to Smash Ultimate. I've actually been playing more and more since around october of last year. With my friends we would go and play on his switch. I don't have a switch, so I use an Emulator on my computer and connect my roommates ps4 controller to play. Cost me 0 dollars to play, fuck u nintendo. Playing through the new Planarcadia on hsr is nice too, and playing puella magi madoka magica on my psp.. 

Some other things I think I wanted to journal about is AI. So today in class during a engineering lab class, the lab was stupidly made. It was a matlab lab, they told us about how AI is a useful tool, and basically told us to use google gemini, copy and paste the code we were provided and ask AI "what does this code do"? and then made us write a short paragraph about what the AI told us the code did, then they warned us and said "don't use AI to generate your code and stuff use it as a good tool" and that if you use AI make sure to put it in the appendix. 

Ok sure whatever, but then they just threw us into the second part of the lab which was basically more time wasting: Explain what this code does, then do the code. I thought it was stupid because why did they even make me waste my time using AI and writing the first part of that lab. I actually spent more time writing explanations than actually working on the code, than coding itself. I didn't even need to use the AI, since I know matlab code pretty well. But even if I didn't why not just throw us into the second part of the lab, and then just teach us... what the code did? Plus, it's mainly retards who rely on AI so much, they're gonna use AI to code, they’re gonna fail and not get far at all, just like how they’re gonna fail in life. I hate those who use AI for everything because you already know just from how they use it they are so incompetent, lazy, and uninspired. 

But with AI I have different views about it too. I get annoyed when people are just vehemently anti-AI and they get all their information from tiktok. For example, my university announced it was building an AI research center. Keyword, research, because it's not a data center. But all the comments on LinkedIn, instagram, and reddit was just brainless college students saying "oh great water and energy prices going up, wow you guys so evil, evil capitalism". And the funny thing is, if they just using their eyes and read, they would've been able to see it was a research center dedicated to learning about the "ethics, morals, and safety of using AI." So it was literally stuff they probably would've agreed with anyways. But who am I to expect American university students to be able to read.

Additionally I was browsing the neocities reddit one day when I've been seeing some conversation about AI. One was someone who used AI images on their site, got called out for it, then deleted their site (AI images are incredibly gross, but this person got kind of witchhunted but whatever it's not my business) what did pique my interest though was a post about someone asking whether it's ok to use AI to learn HTML. It turns out they were someone who was very inexperienced in anything computer related. Many comments were of the mild side, saying don't generate your entire page using AI because that's cringe, and I agree with that. But some people said you shouldn't use AI at all and never. My input is that AI is ok to use if you are confused and want to ask "What does this line of code do?" But never use it to create images, or create your entire website. I think all people who want to learn HTML can start with W3schools and the other resources there are in the world. But AI is awful at creating but it is good at answering questions. 

Anyhow, I'm gonna write a part 2 of this later